[Question?] Anyone here a food addict? Or have issues binge eating before or during this?

Been a food addict for a long while now. Considering doing keto for real but I feel so powerless? Food is so emotionally attached in me and I use it as a reward system. It motivates me as sick as that is. I feel like stopping my binge eating is not possible. I hate my body and want to be healthy and like myself. I know it is in my control but it feels so much bigger than me (lol) but really. It is one of the biggest issues I've had to deal with. I don't know where to begin. I also already have a lot of pain so I don't know how I'm going to get through the withdrawal.